1/20/16
Still getting used to school.
I missed the bus I was supposed to take to school.
Luckily, there was a taxi at the bus stop and I took it.
I felt bad because I couldn't pay him the full amount he asked for.
My parents will never know that I rode a taxi by myself for the first time.
Today, I had molecular biology. I thought Allah has playing a sick joke on me. "Why is he being so nice to me?" I thought. But as expected, the teacher seemed nervous, small in front of the class, and running out of breath. She wasn't prepared at all. I started staring at the clock and falling asleep in between checking.
Almost fell asleep on the bus, too. So slow and soothing.
I have so much homework already. I seriously considering dropping out. I have zero money to buy books or pay for the rest of my tuition. I can't go to the job fair to look for a new job because I have to work at my actual job.
Watched iKON and BAP's V apps.
I went to my sister's school band concert. I played like I didn't want to go. But I went to support her. Because nobody else could or would go. I wanted to play an intrude meant when I was little and now the opportunity was given to her. You have to support kids and their creative activities. It helps them develop. I've been stunted. I have no one to blame because I didn't even have the backbone to stand up for myself chasing after my art.
Note: I need to stop giving people money. No. Don't even think about asking.
*This is my space for complaining since I don't have a human recording device. Therefore, I feel like I'm heard and understood after I've condense my thoughts. Please don't mind.
Asma.
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